hello people!! :D
gonna blog about the metamorphosis concert that i attended ytd (:
met jing, pat, debbie, & gillian @ bb mrt.
then me, pat and jing parted ways with gillian and debbie.
jing wanted to get a new top, cos she was wearing something very plain. :x
so we chionged!!!
first picture of the day! taken with pat (: can you spot jing? thats her in her casual clothing! (: and a weird expression :x LOL.
so we bought the top, chionged to the toilet to change and tidy up. (:

i managed to say things that i've never planned to say, and actually plan to keep it as a secret for the rest of my life. yet ytd, i said everything. haha. although there was no reaction from him, but at least, i told. and in the midst of telling, i started crying. no idea why, but yeah. felt really sad at that time and started to go bahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. so stupid! but yeah, i cried lah. and i couldnt stop, until people around me like yishi got worried and started telling me really STUPID jokes.
haaahaaaa. couldnt stop laughing. (:
thanks yishi! :D loves. :3
heeeeeeheeeeeeee.
&& tml's ning birthday! :D:D:D
hahahahahah, so excited (: (: (:
woahahahahahah :D
cant wait manzx. heeeheeee.
&& i got my bang bang tang today (:
happy, but this is the first & last one (:
but it's enough, cos i knw kor very stingy one.
woahahahaha! ;P
bye, shall blog again tml, or ltr :D

hi people.
haha.
i'm currently having fever, and still reading that stupid cheng nan jiu shi,
simply because i've got a test tml.
so irritating! -- RAWR.
i've got to continue with that damn book alr, shall blog again tml (:

dying = solve problems?
in my point of view, its stupid.
i used to think that dying is good, it can solve all problems.
but now as i've matured, and opened up, i realised that the thought of dying is just foolish.
after have been through so many things, i realised how beautiful life is.
so why not cherish it and live each day to the fullest?
sometimes, i feel so great to me alive in this world.
compared to some people, i'm so much btr off.
i've got God, my family, BBJLB, bert jie, jingchao papa, kiat kor, liat di, xy kor, guigui, eric yeye, and all my kors and jies (:
sometimes i even thank God for being able to love, even if i would get hurt in the process and end up wasting so much tears, i'm still happy.
cos i'm proud to be alive! hahahaha. so why think of dying just because you think she doesnt love you anymore? thats like so dumb. and its just what you think, not what she thinks, right? and i'm freaking pek cek with some boy, who wants to go die and cut his wrist. do you think its worth it? no right? how would she feel? even worst when she has found out that you hurt yourself. after much effort to talk you out of doing anything foolish and giving you plenty of advice, its just back to square one. its like a futile attempt trying to cheer you up and stuffs. you think disappearing will solve all problems? no, it doesnt alright. so snap up and wake up.
if YOU wanna die, GO AHEAD. i wont stop you! (: just tell me straight in the face so i wont waste so much time on you. you're just a failure lah, if you keep in thinking of death. i'm fuming as i'm typing this post, so sorry to all those poor readers out there who are not involved. SORRY! :x
whoooo, i feel so much btr now.
evilhead, get the message?
; by the way, its such a weird way to celebrate my 123th post :x

hey people!! i'm here to blog again (:
wahahahhahah.
just now went to grab zhang ning's present at imm, and went to mini toons for a walk.
saw these guiguis!! super cute :Dthey were put on the very top cos they were too fat :P but so cute lahhhhhhhh! i like ^_^
the hands and legs all fat fat one, soft soft one (:
shld be veh nice to hug :D
i want lehhh, but its like 49.90$ .__.
anyone wants to offer to buy the girlgirl one for me as birthday present?
LOL, jk.
i shall slowly save, heeheeeheeee.


only regret is that i did not have a chance to tell him how i felt. but since its over its over. he wouldnt wanna know that i avoided his love cos of her. if i had never stumbled across that blogpost, we might not have missed each other. but things now have changed, and it makes no difference to whether he knows it or not. telling him the truth equals to putting him on a fence. he should just stay by her. he shouldnt be shook by what i say, he should stand firm. so i decided to keep quiet and let time wash away all wounds.
i love my friends, as well as singlehood (:
bye, i'm going to sleep.

hi people! sorry for not keeping my promise :x :x hahaha.
promised to blog on 160707, but i was too lazy too :x :x
LOL.
alright, lets start with 160707.
MARIA'S LETTER WAS READ OUT! :D :D
so happy. hahah :D:D
170707.
went to have instant noodles with jing after school and slacked abit under block 17 (:
hehe.
then went home le..
180707, had oral.
i couldnt stop talking and the cher was like:'okay, good, good, okay that's enough, lets go to the next question.'
._________.
i was hurted.
LOL.
190707.
had training (:
kinda tough but fun. leg hurts though! :x
heeeheeeee.
200707.
slacked after school with yeye, pipppy, lamaliseed jie && xuanyang.
left school not long after (:
today! 210707.
went for tuition, as usual.
and my internet's changed to wireless already, so now i'm like in my room, with my beloved comp (:
HAPPY-ING-
hahhahahaha.


things that i nvr managed to forget over these 195 days, i've finally manage to forget them.
i hope from now onwards, i'll no longer feel sad because of you or because of things pertaining to you. letting go isnt easy, but i believe i've managed to do it. the days spent with you, were painful, yet nice. all i can say now is, wish you happiness (: may your love last, and do not let anything get you down :D
bye people, i'm off to bed.

today is a sunday.
hahahahaa.
can you believe it, i spent it mugging matrices at home.
omg............
hahahahahahahahahaa.
and tml! stayed tuned to 933 :D
there's maria's/shrek's/jiajun's birthday letter.
hope it'll be read out! (:
27th july is coming soon! both ning's b'day letter and my emo anon letter'll be read out.
haha...
ning; this year your birthday present CONFIRM+CHOP will be on time (:
love you people many, shall blog tml :3

helpless, frustrated, sad, confused.
thousands of thoughts rushing through my mind.
whats happening?
i dont even know.
everything is in a mess, and i dont even know why.
i'm tired.
tears just flow uncontrollably.
trapped in that little space with no space to breathe.
please, may everything come to an end and spare me out of this.
is this a nightmare?
if yes, snap me out of it NOW.
may God bless.

hi peopleeeeeeeeeeeeee.
here to blog again.
hehe.
today was a bad, bad day for me.
in the morning, forgot to bring thermometer.
stupid, make us sit in the rain.
rahhhhhhhhhhh, after that i got a splitting headache.
did my math and chem test with a painful headddddddddd ): then after school, went to westmall with jing. got some earrings and clips.
then went home le (:
to jing: sorry for suggesting to go to westmall, causing us to see somethings that made us upset.
but lets continue to hope that things will get better okay? we shall not give him up just like that. no matter what, he's still our friend (: jiayou girl :D i'll jiayou too, so no worries (:

hi people (:
another post. hahahaha.
this post is filled with pictures, ugly photos of me.
hahahahahhahaha :D
recently i've been addicted to black & white photos!
and yellow photos too (:
i love other coloured photos, but just not colourful photos!
realised that somehow without colour, photos are much nicer (:
heeeeeeeheeeeeeeeeee :D this is so LOL (:

hi people! long time no blog (:
heeeheeee. first post up these meaningful words: super nice eh? (: i like. wohohoh.

what are promises?
they are just words built on an empty word, has no foundation, and will collapse and cause destruction. a promise is nothing, without actions.
thankyou jingyi, for teaching me this theory long ago.
because of this, i never carry hope on promises you gave to me.
because, your promises simply aren't carried out.
no matter how hard i try to make it stable, without you, the one who made the promise to stabalise it, my efforts are just futile.
today, i finally decided to just look on the bright side and let go.
i'll not hate, nor i'll avoid.
the promises you've made..
till one day you really wanna carry them out, i'll just forget them.
so sorry, i dont think i can be with you till the end of time anymore..
i'm simply too tired.
no longer have the energy to keep up with you, no longer have the energy to be always there for you.
i'm not somebody whom you can take for granted, not someone whom you turn to when you dont have a her.
dont tell me liking someone is not wrong, when you're the one being liked and you dont know the feeling of one-sided love.
but dont worry, i'll still keep those two letters. i hope you wrote them sincerely.
i'll still treat you as kor, no matter what.
it's just that.. our distance will be back to where it was, again.
hahahahhaa, feel so relaxed after venting all my frustrations! :D
dont read, if you dont understand whats going on.
as for the letter... whether you wanna pass to me or not, it's up to you (: