tired, i'm so tired..
very very tired >:(
dunno why, these days so tired.
haha..
i wanna seeeeeeeeeee wanggggggggggzi :D
wo de wangzi~~
and aoquan is like so cute. heehee.
'25 岁还当什么棒棒堂男孩!' HAHAHA.
so funny. okay lah. i'm not in a mood to blog. not funny :( lol.









♥, when you're gone, the pieces of my heart are missing you.

you.
always you.
you always make me feel the heartache, feel the pain.
do you know it hurts, seeing you waste your life like that?
you're not meant to live a life like this, :(
its hurts us to see you this way. its really, really hurting :/
in other instances, whatever you've done, i could just accept.
but this thing. is something you can never erase.
its a blemish. whenever people see it, you'll never get to wash away from that past even when you've repented.
sometimes i feel so useless, so dumb.
why do i still care, why do i stl feel the pain when you are step by step nearer to ruining yourself?
i'm your mei in name, but useless in fact.
i cant help you do anything, i cant even save you from all these.
you hurt me, & this time, very deeply.
disappointed again, & again.
the hurt is alr undescribable.
blood is dripping from my heart.






♥, 有时, 我真的不想懂得.

hello! so many feelings gushing up now that i dont feel like blogging. but nvm :)
i dunno whats wrong with me, i've been dreaming of me slapping one guy & one girl for a few nights alr.
its kinda scary, but i feel the shuangness whn i slapped them(in my dreams, although i dunno them).
i knw i'm horrible, but yeah! LOL LOL LOL.
anyw, yeah. hohohohohohohohohohohohohoho.
really tired, so see ya :)



to wenxi; cheer up babe :) no one ever wanted things to happen this way. if we had a way, we definitely would pull him back to the correct side yeah?
but we dont have the power & authority to. and thats really sad :(
however, we can still pray, & hope that there's one day, he'll repent. thn there's still a chance of him being someone useful. however, what has happened, has happened. we cant erase all the bad bad things on him yea. all i can say is, he knew the wrong person.
but whatever! smile for a better tml :] ♥ :D

i admit, that i'm emo :)



♥,亲爱的, 那不是爱情.

random pic taken with my sis :)





♥, 想要赶过伤悲, 自己却在, 终点前崩溃.

YO :D
i decided to keep the balance & want to keep quiet actually.
but yeah, somehow the fire's raging! bla. lol.
so here goes.
Firstly to the anon :)
hello my friend!
you jolly well know who you are. & i roughly know who you are so stop playing hide & seek with me.
if you want me to state who i'm blogging about can you please kindly state your name @ my tagboard first?
kindly appericiated! :]
next.
woohooooooooo.
nice nice.
if it were me, that would be the worst thing i would have ever received, yeah?
nice, NOT.
damn pissed off.
lastly, dont put the hurt on her.
it doesnt belong to her & you've no right to blame her for the hurt.
imcompetence, sensitivity, brainless-ness caused your sadness? thats all i can say.
yo, & people are telling me that i should listen to both sides of the story? ha. you only know one as well my dear.
lie, betrayal, deceit all are lying behind every fact.
i just can say that we were too naive.

hello :)
her. her. her. her. her.
i dislike all of them. :P
what stupid right do you have, to hate sky, whn you guys are not superior people yourself?
zzzzz.
i dislike them, since i knew they dislike her cos of her.
you're not her, i dont understand why you guys have the right to dislike sky.
BLEAH. I DONT LIKE!
esp since the most recent incident, made me totally put off.
whatever, since i think sky's a much better person than you & you :P
hahahahahhaa.
so shuang to type this out.
anyw, congrats to all the seniors who did well in your O levels! :D
hohoho, i think Mrs K is damn happy this yr :)
& i thk JY received her best bday pressie, an A1 in chinese :]
我以你为傲哦! :D
jiayou for 9 points. heheh.
today, went bowling after half day with BBJLB & chao :)
had fun, hoho.
very tired le, goodnight :]


P.S; ZZZZ TML IS XIAO JU DAN. NO MORE HOPE! SAD :(

byebye.

hello :)
hmmm, actually lazy to post.
but, yeah.
today was a horrid day.
broke down in sch.
cried for a good 30 mins.
felt btr actually :)
and yeah, so tired now.
i think i broke down not only cos of stress. maybe i compressed my sadness for far too long a time, & yea i just burst out.
but okay lah! i feel better, & thats good. heeeheeeeeee.
anyw thanks so much to kjy, who asked me if i was okay in the toilet :]
hehehe, thanks! :D
and thanks to Ryan, who tried to make me laugh. thanks to salt, kenneth, weiyang, jiajun, jiahao & all those who were concerned. heheh.
although jiahao expressed his concern in a violent way. but thanks!
& thanks to john who called me amanda da jie ._. HAHA.
thanks everybody. great to have so many nice frnds around me. hoho.



ANYWAY, its like 4 days to xiao ju dan.
anyone, wanna sponser 3D2N stay in Taiwan, plus air tickets & BBTs concert tix? FRONT ROW :P HAHA. wonder if sold out le ma :( lol.
anyw, make that 3 sets.
1 for me, 1 for JY & 1 for wenxi! HAHAHAHA :D
we love BBT lah, can ;)
hohohoho. any sponsers can kindly tag @ my board ._.
HAHA.
okay, see ya! :)







in love with this suddenly~ :P

sad. haha, me & JY were talking about this song today :) lazy to blog today, loads of work to finish. seeeeeeeeeee youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu.

P.S; 5 DAYS TO XIAO JU DAN. SAD. I WANNA GO LAH! >:(

so so SO tired >:(
whats gonna happen ltr man.
problems piling on problems.
why is this happening to me?
suddenly, whn i'm feeling happy, the world crashes on me.
is it that fun, to make me emo, make me sad, make my tears fall down?
really very tired. very very tired.
you once said we'll walk to the end of time together. you once said we'll be friends forever.
does it still count? i dont think so.
you didnt make me suffer, neither did you hurt me.
cos i told myself you're not worth it.
i no longer shed tears for you, i promised myself. but why.
why do you always trigger those tears?
你只是我错过的爱情, 你凭什么让我难过, 让我的心情跌到谷地?
是我的错吗? 是我一直不敢面对现实, 把自己困在过去, 困在回忆里.
是我太傻了吧? 哈哈. 也许把. 也许我真的很傻, 好傻好傻.
我放弃了. 决定追求没有你, 幸福的日子.
让风把伤痛吹走, 把泪水吹干. 让时间把回忆带走.
你, 只不过是一个在我心里小小角落的一个回忆.







♥, 我们的爱, 过了就不再回来.

suddenly thought of this song. 1st time whn i went to church's youth fellowship at pri 5, it was the 1st song i heard & sang :) wheeeee, i like :D

helloooo.
hohohoh.
actually, i also dunno what to blog about.
lol.
ytd, was damn pissed with people who cut queue. argh! :x
so sucky.
thn today, went to NP.
so fun :)
went to the business school with bert, eric, chao & liat.
so fun! haahahhahaa.
but i had gluttons surrounding me :x
donuts lovers .__. HAHA.
after that, walked with liat & bert to bus stop :]
NP is so nice lah. i want to go there! :D hehe.
but tourism.........
10 POINTS LEH.
can die.. :(
BUT I'LL STILL JIAYOU ;)
HEHEH.



ytd, you really made me so pissed off >:(
towards me, do you only have such words to say to me?
if you wanted to make me hate you, congrats. i must say that you've succeeded eh?
& what i did today, was just to let you have a taste of your own medicine. maybe you hate me alr? haha.
if me liking you was such a burden to you, i'm sorry, ok?
all i wanna say is,
goodbye. :)





♥, 我愿意, 不爱你.

once again, i've said words deep down in my heart.
wondered where i got the courage to do so, i really dunno.
maybe you might avoid me after this or something, but i dont really wanna knw.
because, i dont mean a little bit to you.
at least i'm honest to myself, and honest to you.
now i can leave your side without any regrets towards you :)




♥, 我会学着放弃你, 是因为我太爱你.

new blog song up! :)
xiaoyu's composition.
I LIKE! :D
hohohohohohoho.








♥, you make me a fool.

hello! being a little lame here.
but you knw i think Jolin, Junyang & BBT are really lucky people.
cos they're 3 people that i bought the album with my OWN money.
LOL.
and YZW also, i think!
cos i confirm + chop buying his album :)
Jolin, i spent over $30 buying her CD + DVD that time.
got her autographed card whn she graduated.
haha!!
Junyang, that time yu gou & got the dog tag :]
thn BBT!
i think i bought this album without feeling heart pain the most.
DUNNO WHY .__. hohohoho.
and YZW! is gonna be the next lucky guy whom i'll purchase the album :P
&..
xiao jing teng i guess.
HAHA! :D
alrighto, gotta get back on my studies.
wasted 5 hours @ the doctors & sleeping le.
see you guys soon! :)






whee, fit how i'm feeling now.
got the ganchiong feel, i like!! :D
HOHO.

Alone.
suddenly realised that i've done many many things alone recently,
like going home alone, doing projects alone, singing songs alone, sleeping alone, doing many many things alone.
hoho!
and the feeling of doing things alone isnt all that bad,
its just that you do more for projects. haha.
but sometimes i enjoy that kind of peace, the joy of doing things without interruption.
heheheh.
OMO, one man operation. learnt it from yan ba. LOL.
so cool right :]
okay lah, shall not bore you all with this alone post.









DONE :D

♥, 是我想太多, 你总这样说, 但你却没有, 真的心疼我.

hoho.
still the same rantings!
tons of work to finish zzz...
& i'm like supposed to set gooed example right .__.
LOL LOL LOL.
but at least i procrastinate less now :D
wheeee heehehehehehehehee :)
i finished my chinese TYS, & math.
WHOO! feeling so contented nowwwwwwwwwwwww :]
heheh.
Friday - rotted @ home after sch.
Saturday - went for test @ British Council & TP open house.
Sunday - tuition & hw! MEANS I DID MY HW ON TODAY, & i managed to finish.
HOHO! :D
i think i like so zi high -_-
& i think i love files alot now.
cos i gotta put many stuffs into files....
:)
okay lah, i'm now so tired alr, wanna go find Prince in lala land to relieve stress :P
see you! :]

oh, AND ALL 4E4 PEOPLE WHO READ THIS.
PLEASE HAND IN YOUR PHYSICS WORKSHEET TML K!
otherwise you knw what Mr C will do.
& he's such a horrid person with horrid plans.
so...
:)

so bitter eh, these songs. make my pain feel sour & pain to the extreme. aska yang's voice really make my heart sink. hoho.

♥, my heart is raining.

260th post :)
feeling very tired suddenly.
everyday when i open my eyes, i think of studies.
when i close my eyes, i'm planning what to study the next day.
cool eh?
flooded with work these few days, & besides my dear gastric isnt feeling well. :/
die? i think so...
haahahahhahha.
ytd, did geog in class.
very tired, & i broke down.
sorry to Weeliat, & Eric.
i think i scared you all, didnt i?
sorry.............................
however, sang many many songs with them after that & felt much btr.
thank you so much! :)
Vice-chairman.
this is the post i've never thought i would get.
stress.
went to TP alone today, the cut of points are like so high.
another stress.
sec 4 is the year i dont get to be a human i guess?
hoho.
=)
i think this post since abnormal =/
who cares, i'm just typing what i feel now. :)
& i wanna tell all of you out there:
I LOVE YOU GUYS =)
heeheeeeeee.
and thank you for being my friend.
hohohohoho.
my eyes are closing, so goodnight :)

i'm sick, & tired.
homeworks piling on after homeworks. :/
smurf! you say you would treat me to happymeal one hor. :)







running home in the rain while having gastric is the worst thing you would ever encounter. trust me. :/
time is running out,& i'm running against it.

hello! :D
this will be a post on pictures, hohoho :D shoes! :)

hohoho! its 08/01.
& guess what! I GOT MY NA LI PA ALBUM.
YES, BBT! :)
damn, its like 4 days late .__. but nvm, at least i got it lah :)
had some scary things in sch today, wasted a few hours of my life.
went to eat after sch & get na li pa album.
realised that my gastric isnt being good today.
popped @ least 6 painkillers whn i'm only supposed to eat 4.
hoho :P
wheeeeeeeeeeee, so happy :)
anyw 1st day of sch was okay~
but abit stress!
went to eat after sch ytd with JY thn went home.
was kinda emo last night x.x
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.
stress ah.
okay! i promised i'll post photos right? but i'm like so busy -_-
WO HEN MANG :(
next post k!
okay, gotta run! still need to touch up on chinese project & send to jiahao.
and..
JINGYI!
he's okay :)
and lastly..
shimin's quote: 'the fastest way to slim down is by smoking. super effective.'
LOL .__________________.
just joking lah.
and hahahah! wenxi, i didnt forget. HOHO.

Three Things You Want To Do Before You Die:
1) Loads of money!
2) Settle with a blissful family and a lovely husband + a big big house :D
3) Own a nice vintage car :)
Three Names You Go By:
1) Amanda.
2) Sin Yee.
3) Manda.
Three Screen Names You Have Had:
Rarely had any!
Three Physical Things You Like About Yourself:
1) Mouth
2) Hair
3) Eyes (althou its small, its my speciality :P)
Three Parts Of Your Heritage:
????????? dunno whats that, LOL ._.
Three Things That Scare You:
1) Sudden shocks
2) Nightmares
3) Scary looking people
Three Of Your Everyday Essentials:
1) Wallet
2) Handphone
3) Headphones
Three Things You Are Wearing Right Now:
1) Shorts
2) Underwear
3) Big black shirt
Three Of Your Favorite Bands/Musical Artists:
1) Bang Bang Tang :D
2) Lin You Jia
3) Jay Chou
Three Of Your Favorite Songs:
1) BBT: wo men zhi jian :)
2) Lin You Jia - Bei Ying.
3) Jay Chou - bu gong ying de yue ding.
Three Things You Want In A Relationship:
1) Trust
2) Love
3) Understanding
Three Physical Things About The Preferred Sex That Appeal To You:
1) Face
2) Hair
3) Body
Three Of Your Favorite Hobbies:
1) composing music
2) chatting
3) play piano
Three Things You Want To Do Really Badly Right Now:
1) sleep
2) watch tv
3) talk to long lost frnds.
Three Careers You’re Considering / You’ve Considered:
1) salesperson (earn loads of commision one :P)
2) accountant
3) bistro boss :D
Three Places You Want To Go On Vacation:
1) Japan
2) Europe
3) Antartica
Three Kid’s Names You Like:
1) Daryl
2) Bertrand :P
3) Anastasia
Three Ways That You Are Stereotypically a Girl:
1) i take a pink schoolbag? -_- lol.
2) voice that sounds like a girl? Lol.
3) long hair :)
Three Ways That You Are Stereotypically a Boy:
1) tomboyish character :x
2) i like to look @ pretty girls. HAHA.
3) can win guys in arm wrestling sometimes ._.

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.
why is Singapore so slowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww :(
i see F4 & FLH album le but not BBT! saddedddddddddddddd.
and the worst thing is, the Popular people are so ignorant.
ask them when come, they just say '不清楚.'
if not sure might as well dont work as the salesperson!
RARRRRRRRRRRR.
i dont care man.
shall go HMV tml & look for it :P
HOHO.
hopefully it'll come soon! :)
BBT is ♥ ;D

:)

heyya :D
hoho.
chey, it seems like i havent blogged for many days but it real fact, 2 days only ._.
hahahhaa.
okay lah, 2nd Jan's post not counted cos its a blank post with a song. heh.
2nd Jan: went to swensens for etiquette course. Nazri was practically playing with the food, & it was quite noisy @ swensens. :x
reached sch & went back home with Ning after that :)
3rd Jan: bowling. hohoho. funny day~
with such bowling skills, i got 5th @ the thingy. HAHAHAHAA.
& my score's like damn bad. 96 only leh.
mushroom was 2nd! :D
she got 102. hahaa.
QQ got a score of 161. gosh, how he play one x.x
4th Jan: bad day! :(
COS BBT ALBUM NOT OUT. THOSE RECORD STORES CHEAT MY FEELINGS.
LOL :(
i want so longggggggggggggggggggggggg loe.
saddded!
haha.
went k with Ning & Yj. sang songs & got a free mug @ Kbox :D
hoho.
met Jy after K & she & Ning bought caramel macchiato :]
quite nice, heheh.
thn i bought a chocolate muffin @ starbucks too.
went to Esplanade after that & Ning & Jy wanted to eat Choz fondue. haha.
$25!! so tempted to eat, but like so ex :x
haha, & we met Mr Quek.
after that, went to library to look for Yj.
thn went to the lobby alr :)
beauty world was great! :D heeeheeeeeee.
AH HOCK! :D why never end up with ivy...
'my i-ahahaha-vy, i love you...'
HOHOHOH. so funny ;)
& daren tan was quite good looking in person. so is the frankie guy! so cute :]
heheh. if i got the chance to watch again, i wanna sit @ the front! heheh.
went to the foyer with Ning for the autograph session after the show :)
thn went home via car~
actually i want to comment about our sch this time.
i thk that our sch students didnt really behave their best, being so loud while @ the theatre & stuffs. & the changing of seats, you guys should change your tix instead of just the seats & take for granted that you wont be caught. its like, for Mr Quek to shout @ us @ a public place like Esplanade, its disgraceful. the ticket lady even asked which school we were from & seriously, i was kinda reluctant to answer. she seemed damn unpleased with us & the worst thing is that, the ticket lady even caught some of th students not sitting @ the place they're not supposed to be sitting at. hopefully she doesnt write a complain letter to our sch or something :x
boooooooooooooo, you should have seen the faces of the teachers ytd after the show x.x
so scary.
alright, i shall put a stop to this post alr.
see you guys, pictures will be posted up soon :)

actually i wanted to blog, but suddenly lost the mood to. :/
and i'm really addicted to this song :)
三公分阳光 三公分空气
堵在眼前像一面玻璃
挡住了你表情 剩下只有脚印
一直向前走 走不完距离
一直向后 退不出回忆
很高兴有心事 帮我困住自己
你头发上淡淡青草香气
变成了风才能和我相遇
你的目光 蒸发成云
再下成雨我才能够靠近
感谢我不可以 住进你的眼睛
所以才能 拥抱你的背影
有再多的遗憾 用来牢牢记住
不完美的所有美丽
感谢我不可以 拥抱你的背影
所以才能 变成你的背影
躲在安静角落 不用你回头看
不用珍惜
(躲在安静角落 如果你回头看
不用在意)
我怀里所有温暖的空气
变成风也不敢和你相遇
我的心事 蒸发成云
再下成雨却舍不得淋湿你




i remember your backview, i really do.

HAPPY 2008! :D
may the year ahead be a happy year for all of you & sec4s, JIAYOU! :]
manda loves all of you :)