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forget it. i am just a coward..................... yes i am. still keeping quiet and crying secretly after reading your hurtful words. nobody knows how i feel now. horrible.

after a long long long draggy discussion..........
me & yj still decided to head down to chinatown to check out the travel agency ^_^
managed to catch the same 174, thn took the bus down to chinatown.
talked loads :)
reached chinatown and went to enquire about the trip~
had new plans and back up plans hehehe.
ate 小锅面 or whatever it is for dinner.. thn headed home already.
it was kinda like a short trip but it did lift my tired spirits up, thanks babe! :D
so now i am in front of the com hehe.


well, maybe its me who has changed. but so has you. you have changed till we have no more common topic, even the common topic we used to have is gone. i don't think they're so important to you, now already. there're so much more important stuffs to you, i guess. that shows the difference between us... maybe its good to be back to where each of us really belong. 连讲两句话都会僵掉，连意见都频频有纷争。也许。。。我们一开始就是错误的。也许。。我们一直以来都活在只有彼此的虚幻世界里，现在才了解现实，是和我们活在的世界里的倒反。

hello wello :)
went to work @ daddy's office from 1-5:30 PM today. was kinda boring but there was money! $_$ heheh. now i've enough to buy one 终级改版, yaye ^_^
real working was only from 1-2+, after i finished my work i was dumped into this room where i can do my own things. shiok ah! i did 1 paper 1 and 1 paper 2, and did 2 ss essays hehehe~
after that i read my mags! total leisure & i rotted~ first time felt tired rotting manz! ;zhehe me table! :D
okay, i was sooooooooo leisure that i was barefooted HEHEHE. well, since i was alone, no one can see mah. hehehehe.
spasm :)
i was so bored that i started to do ugly faces, pardon me :P
sian already lah! thus the sian loooooooooook D:
hahaha, thn got off work @ 5:30PM, daddy drove me to look for mommy and we went shopping.
thanks mommy for sponsoring my shopping trip today! and thank her in advance for sponsoring my tw trip and expenses..... (L) :D
totally shagged. i can't imagine people who work in office 9-5. i thk i will die. i'm someone that needs to move around badly! ;z and i feel so no 满足感, like so 空虚!
cuz its kinda boring and mundane...... :S
whatever it is, i am working cuz i need money okay!!!!!! :(
anyw, i miss my boys! :/ roarrrrrr.

i will never forget this day man. never :)
awaiting the next ep of htqxz w doggeh in it!!!!!!!!!!! :D



love! (L)


P/S; i suddenly feel so tired, that even breathing is a burden...........
i feel so sad, because, you're no longer the abang i knew.
my heart hurts. but you'll never know how its pricking me, how its killing me. bye, my dearest boy.

random.
sometimes, i wonder, if it's just me who is such.
its really tiring for me, now. i don't need to feel obligated to anyone.
but what's happening tells me so.
why.................
it's really tiring. i don't like when i drift away from someone. the feeling hurts.
but now, i don't even have the courage to ask or talk anymore. why have things turned to this stage, i dunno.
forget it, i just wanna get this O's done and over with, and go for my major getaway. kinda busy after O's! :D
floor the love on 15th, prom in 17th(if i didn't get the date wrong..), red camp 19th-21st, 22nd me birthday(prezzies please hahaha :P), Beijing 1st-8th dec, Taiwan 20th dec-3rd Jan~ yaye baybeh. good! don't wanna waste my time after da O's. gotta start working after getting back from Taiwan. need money big time! D: however, i'm free from 23rd-30th Nov. hope i can find some day job or something. don't waste the time, might as well use it to make moneh! :) good lobangs can always tag on my board. hehe. but i thk i'm kinda like going on hiatus mode soon...
if you realised my blog's kinda dead nowadays :S
but anyw, it's saturday! :D
awaiting 黑糖群侠传 :)
good luck to all folks taking the o's and jiayou! :)
me love you all. hehe sayonara~



this song is nice. the lyrics really are. :)
♥, 能不能不爱了，因为爱太痛了，我痛的快死了，却无法把你忘了。

this really made my day! my handsome boys! ♥
帅！！！！！！:)

廖俊傑生日快乐!! ♥
happyyyyy birthday! :D
whoooooooo. 希望你能够创作更多好听的音乐，不要放弃！
音乐才子小傑！嘿~
生日快乐!!!!! :D

if you're a constant reader of my blog, you might have read my 03/08 post!!!
i mentioned that i wanted to go watch a concert, and i wanted to watch hers! :)
我来也！！！！！！
这首歌，我一定要听现场：



从小到大几乎是听她的歌长大的。
真的很欣赏她的唱功！:D

i'm a derrick supporter.
since PSS 1 days i found him handsome.
and he is growing more handsome and handsome each day...
even thought of going to hunt for him @ orchard road on fri LOL.
but thn..
i saw his gaiban.
看了他的D计划，有一点失望。
因为，肯定会被人家批评说是抄袭。
手心是肉，手背也是肉。。。。

我的令狐聰也太可怜了吧！！！:(
my eyes are red now. damn.

生活好像慢慢的失去它原本该有的色彩。
感觉上，变得很单调，无聊。
好想远离这个让我身心疲惫的地方，出去散散心。
但是我知道，在散心之前，要熬过这一个月，然后就可以赐给自己无忧无虑的自由咯！
好期待O水准结束的到来，好期待假期的开始！！
期待毕业旅行，期待自由，期待打工，期待到人生的下一站！
突然好期待！！：D
有时候，我突然明白了朋友的无奈。
以前的自己，总是沉浸在悲伤里面，总感觉不到朋友的无奈和无助。
对我而言，我很难过。但对他们来说，我只不过是在放大自己的悲伤。
真的明白了这种感觉。感觉上对他们有亏欠。
啊，不想说了。
现在的我对生命有一重无奈感。
但是我知道，必须撑下去，我得ㄍ一ㄥ，才能够成为胜利者。我会加油的！因为不想抱着任何的遗憾。
拿到成绩的那一天，至少我不会难过，因为我知道我已经尽力了，不需感到愧疚 :)
为了美好的未来，一起加油吧！:)



♡, 不管四季　如此无情的交替　我已不寂寞。
i hope you're feeling better.

random.
i hope, you will cheer up :)



♡，你和我之间，隔着一条街界线不曾有改变。

好，既然要华语进步所以今天就用华文打网志 :)
昨天到了宁的家过中秋节，开了一个 mini party :D
吃了好多好多！！！
超饱的啦！但也超好玩。大家围绕在一个饭桌吃东西，很有团圆饭的 feel!
哈哈！！！
吃饱了之后就吃 chocolate fondue, 然后听周公讲鬼 CD~
本来是有一点毛骨竦然（sp?) 的啦，但是之后就下去玩蜡烛，什么恐怖的东东都忘光光了！！：P
我只能说我们7个人一起玩真的很像一个挑战极限之类的综艺节目。
有 mini circus 的感觉！真的是。。。
经过的路人都好像抱着一个看好戏的 feel!~
没办法，太精彩了。
一个普通的烟火都能弄成大火！！！
现场感受真的是。。热。
哈哈。但是是好玩的！！！期待明年的中秋！！
大家一定要再聚在一起哦！！！！:D
好了，读书时间到了！！！
881 :)



♡, 有一座秘密的基地，在这里不需要言语。

i hate spammers.
i dunno if i've told anyone how much i hate spammers, but i do. seriously.
these humji people seriously have nothing to do and do nothing but to hide behind a computer screen and talk bad about people. and they don't give their real names, don't dare to say who they're, and are acting so big in front of people, and telling everyone that they feel entertained whenever the person he/she is talking about rebutts. i thk its pervertic. do you all have that lil things to do? get a life. its not as if your lives are so mundane right? its not fun to come to my blog at all y' knw ;)
its a boring place. so why bother and waste your time here? and you're showing how loser-ish you're when you actually say you're outta this place and thn come back and rebutt again, obviously unhappy @ how i rebutt your words.
hello~ grow up. no one is so free to go reply each and every of your tags, anyway.
and 1 thing that really pisses me off is that such people act as though they knw me well and they can tell the changes in me and bla bla.
come' on, unless you tell me your real identity and say that you're my primary school friend or something, thn i'll accept it okay. stop using screen names and names like 'shawty' in that case. trying to show that you're short? awwwwwwww sad.
and anyw, don't criticize just cuz you're hiding behind the screen. insulting people cuz you've bad points way worse than those? sad case.
stop it just when its enough. otherwise you'll know what's in store for you.
oh and shawty, since you can't bring yourself to see my twit face, why come here? you said you were outta here. if you are back again, you're just a loser.
oh, and this shawty here actually stereotyped that only chao ah lians can like boybands?
shallow.

i believe everyone has a choice which he/she has to make.
if you were me, you would choose ___ as well. stop making a mountain outta a molehill :)

hey peepo :)
went to topone w ningo & yj ytd! hehe nice place. like quite high class also!
next time must go again! :D
but well, was totally shaggggggggggged after the session. somemore got tuition! D:
almost KO-ed, i dunno how i managed to survive that 2 hours anyw.... hehe.
but one thing funneh is that cuz there was free flow drinks, me & me babes just drank and sang and drank and sang and drank and sang till the waitress finally said '你们很会喝hor?'
ROFL. laughed like mad manz! :)
overall, it was fun! totally gotta revisit there again :}
hehehehe.
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roar. just watched ytd's ep of mfbbt and i saw doggeh! :(
he came to 探班...
all the old memories suddenly gush up and i felt like crying.
its like, he's there but he's no longer the 班长, no longer the 老咖, no more 定格s of him and captions like 'bad dog' or 'fashion dog'........
no more big ears, no more 长长的下巴....
man, i miss him! :(
i miss 6 bang. i miss aben. i miss mfbbt 第一届。
我想念二十棒。真的。。那些美好的回忆，也只能放在心里。。
they're no longer there. but we know, their presence will always be w us :)
and the 'never give up' 棒棒堂 spirit! never say die :D
but i still think that the 制作单位很贱。
keep on asking old boys to come back! :( its like obvious that 收视率 drop like nobody's business... :P
might as well ask the old boys to come back! like wth :/
i am missing my 20 boys. i knw wenny and jingyi are too! :)
time to pull myself away from this sadness. taaaaaaaa! :)



♡，我又何苦在乎得不到的温柔。

oh man, i was talking to wenny just now about some stuffs(ahem ahem :P) and she totally made me miss prince!!!!!!!! :(
2 weeks w/o the 21 pretty boys :/
sian, still have not adapted to it!
hope that i do soon........
read jy's blog. totally laughed like siao when she said 'Meanwhile, I shall go seek immediate death by watching MFBBT with the new didis.'
HAHAHHAHA. i totally laughed like siao when i saw 'seek immediate death' LOL.
zong yi ka! :P heheh.
oh man, i miss my zong yi kas..........................................
esp owodog awei william!
and aben's rihanna~
oh man, shan't go on. i totally miss them....................................
luckily le ye & hu ya are back! :D
then at least there's a sense of warmth :')
hohohoho they rock! ^_^

i was just merely stating a fact by saying that the new didis have no standard.
i mean, ask yourself. do you think they're even living up to the reputation of mfbbt?
一直以来棒棒堂都是一个很有娱乐性很有看头的节目。
但是这些新底迪们真的没有表现的比预期的好。那是事实啊。
如果一个三十秒的表演是精彩的话，我还没话说。
不管怎么样，我是站在第一届这边的。
不管你们要怎么说我，怎么骂我，也是你的选择。
你只会在这里出糗。别忘了。这是我的底盘。是我的布落格。我的发言权。你没有资格过问。

模范棒棒堂第二届根本就是在丢第一届和原本的模范棒棒堂底迪们的脸。
他们的表演说难听一点是垃圾，好听一点是不够努力。
根本是。。真的很令人失望。
凉面的KUSO舞蹈根本一点心思都没有，表演完就算。
要比起敖犬的七龙珠真的是差一百万倍。
天啊。。。没有办法想象这个节目会变成什么样子。。。
旧底迪们回来吧！！！:(

stayed up to watch htqxz, still.
hehehe.
小聋女&韋晓宝 not together yet?!!!!
zzzzzzzz :(
i doubt it'll be so soon also :/
roar. boooooooo. anyw. can't wait for next episode!! :D
but i still feel that 楚流香 very poor thing :/
aye aye.
htqxz's gonna be a show full of messy love and betrayal lo! :(
i hope the plot becomes more kungfu soon :P

456th post! :)
but too bad, its not gonna be an interesting one hehehehe.
but i wanna share something!!!
make up.
what's so good about make up?!
i find make up really scary...
cuz people who're actually reliant on make up look really scary when they 素颜。
i find it totally scary lor!
cuz when people put mascara, eyeliner fake eyelashes, the eye looks damn big and damn nice.
but when they take out all the eye make up, the eye looks as though it shrunk by about 1/2 the size! really freaky omg~
totally teaches me a lesson not to be too reliant on make up!
and i find foundation really uncomfortable, dunno why. like the face cannot touch otherwise the whole thing ruined. sometimes eye make up also, cannot go rub the eyes :/
so 不自在 lor!
and i'm not 玉女 or 矜持派，so i guess i better stick to not being a woman and not having make up :) HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

P/S; this is totally random. just thought of it on my way home from west mall just now! ^_^
no hard feelings towards any make-up peepo okay. just my own thoughts :D

sometimes, i feel that one shouldn't sidetrack.
cuz it's really hard, to take care of both sides.....
i'm not a superwoman.
how nice it'd be, if everyone were satisfied w what he/she has :)


i never break promises. neither would i break the one we had :)

moneyyyyyyyyyyy!
i'm like totally in need of moneh :(
i wished i had a money tree manz.
so i won't be fretting so much nowwwwwwwwww :/
i need:
$30 + $18 + $6 +$30 = $84!!!!!!!
omggggggggg. totally broke.
and i just checked up the prices for my air tickets.
$803 for return tix?!! :(
totally need moneh manzzzzzzzz.
luckily no need accomodation(sp?) fees. teeeeeeeeheeeeeeeee~ :)
can't wait to spend christmas & 跨年 in taiwan.
i look forward to the fireworks @ taipei 101!!!!!! :D
yaye. may o' levels end, & holidays comeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! ;D

awwwwwwww. 煜哥 looks damn hawt in this photo!
love that smile! very charming :D :D :D hehehehehehe.
and his phone is so cool lor.
saw it in Korea 3 years ago :)
i still think its cool, Sg is like so noob don't have this kinda phone! -_-
if have i'll buyyyyyyyyyyy :D :D
alrighty, nights peepo :}




i still luv this song :)

♡, 请你听听这是我想念的声音。

hello hello~! :D
went down to town to catch this movie w Yanjing & Jingyi today:boys over flowers(花样男子) FINAL! ;D
i must say this movie is niceeeeee. hehehe.
cuz its not only romance, kinda action pack also cuz of the mystery of the stolen tiara!
and there were fighting and running scenes that made it very gan chiong.
got the feeeeeeeeeeel! :)
and althou Domoyoji is supposed to be the lead, i find him more handsome:
Hanazawa Rui! awwwwwwwwwww he is cute! :D better than Domoyoji @ least. -_-
but Domoyoji is sweet lah, hehe. but still. he is more handsome! & he looks great in whiteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! :) hoho. but he did appear to be a 笑点 when he appeared in that priest suit. HAHA.
nice movie in conclusion! :D & cheap tix hehe. worth the $6! :D
taken outside the cinema~ oh and i must say The Cathay is nice. the seats're comfy and got big legroom. Eng Wah totally sucks ><
random piccie taken in da toilet after the movie~ :)
after the movie the three of us went to PS to look @ drums!
& we went to see pianos too, & there was this guy who played the piano so well and his backview looked so 斯文 but his gf looked like a cal!
we were like awwwww poor guy so we went to take a peek @ his front view.
siao liao, just a cab who knows how to play the piano well. ROFL.
totally smashed the image of the 文静 feel. LOL LOL.
but well, how many cabs can play the piano well in this era? so, not bad not bad ^_^
HEHE :P
and we went for ice @ ice monster!
i thk we totally disfigured the ice. ROFL. but still, it was nice~ :D
left PS, and the weather was !@#$%^&*( horrible :(
took 190 to bras basah & walked quite a distance ><
went to look @ drums & stuffs again! & yj bought her 成年礼~ :D
piccies of the shop will be posted up soon, cuz i gotta edit them~ hehe :P
but there were sure loads of guitars, no matter its electric or acoustic. quite a fair bit of drums too!
and there was this portable suana for sale too -_-
quite a few K leh...... not cheap. hahaha.
went for dinner w yj after that & parted ways w jy!
we totally walked round and round and round bugis to look for affordable meals i tell you......
esp B1. totally. walk until dizzy. walk until i thk the people recognize us! -_-
HAHA. settled for some set meal that is actually quite reasonable. :)
爆点来了！！！！！！！！
i was sms-ing lao ban niang, and she said she's going to Bugis!
so we totally decided to meet.
& when she said she reached, me & yj were totally..
紧张。damn nervous, damn excited!!!!!
HAHAHAHA.
and she is not fat @ all lor, so fit!! -_-
say so much! LOL!
but thn, we met for only less than even 1 min i thk, -_-
can't wait to see you the next time okayyyyyyyyyyyyy! ^_^
we shall go K~ high high high! :D
me & Yj thn continued shopping after dinner.
totally 闲逛-ed :)
but we agreed it was fun, never did that w her before! :D
we shall go on more trips like this yeah!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ^_^
hoho.
and we went to check out rates for TopOne~
cheap!!!!!!!!! $16 for 7 hrs k. it is really cheap lor! w free flow drinks somemore~ :D
hehehehehehehehehe.
totally must visit there w kopitiam kakis soon!
and BBJLB & wenny. yeah baybeh :D :D
high le. HAHA.
walked arnd before mom & dad finally came to fetch us.
totally shagged after 8 hours out! ><
shall go to sleep after this(i hope :P)..
and finally:
HAHA stocks have arrived! :D
Yumei you see this??
I BET YOU'RE SCREAMING OMJT TO THE SCREEN NOW! ;P
GOODNIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ;D

haha i love this piccie!
so cute! i love cartoons~
anyw, my kopi sohs have gone offline. kinda bored!
entertained by all their screaming and shouting..........
hehe. noisy women :P
yumei! i shall link you, real soon okay! :D
hehe! you want me to link you as Jam's, yumei or 萧敬腾's?
HAHAHAHAHA.

this girl is a great cartoonist! :D
i bet y' knw who this boy laughing on the sofa is! :)



credits to: xiaomo~

HELLO, HELLO!! :D
i thk i've broken my hiatus mood since the news of mfbbt boys graduating came along~ :x
but well well.
i shall stop blogging about mfbbt & bbt, sometime soon yeah? :)
hehehehe.
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now now, for something serious. :)
i was totally reminded of this incident when i was talking to wenny before.
there was this bf(female dog) whom actually personal attack-ed someone on Friday during the teacher day's friendly match.
i thk this girl is totally over the line.
just because they lost the match doesn't mean that they have to be sore losers, okay.
at least, my class didn't.
we lost, and we were happy that @ least we put in our 100% for the match :)
we got the sense of satisfaction and of course continued cheering for our friends in other classes.
if you cannot accept the feeling of losing, don't play.
there is always a choice for you, to play or not.
but since you chose to play, of course you must know how to accept the winning and losing of a game. not like how you reacted, being a sore loser and starting to pinpoint @ people and personal attacking people.
you wouldn't feel good if people insulted you like that right.
like what you say might be a fact, but its hurting.
just look @ you. you really look like a bf, but is anyone so mean to say that in your face?
noone would like to hurt someone elses feelings, just like how they wouldn't want people to hurt theirs.
so think thrice again, please, before you wanna insult people.
by being such a sore loser, you're only expressing how low class you're.
and thats why you're labeled as a cal :)
no you no longer have him as a 靠山，so quit that alright~
i was nice enough not to get back @ you for so many matters, but you really got me burning this time round.
but i'm still gonna keep my cool, 大人不记小人过，我才不想浪费时间和你计较 :D
there's much more things i can do, which are far more meaningful.
oh, and watch your back. there'll be karma.
& till the end, you're still a pathetic woman :]
& i never meant to insult people in other _____. but you just proved to me how low class you people are. picking a fight? you're far from that.
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on the other hand, i thk some other people're being too biased towards lets say, their good friends. facts are facts, its your own thinking that someone is pin-pointing someone else.
peace, no hard feelings. you might be reading this but i don't give a damn, just like how you don't :)

its kinda hurting when the thought of Lollipop going to mfbbt to promote their new OST in the future pops up.
the feeling is no longer the same............
with mfbbt gone, i feel as though, i am 10 more steps further away from Lollipop. :(
那种距离感，很远。也很伤。