i thk certain people're losers.
they don't knw someone and happens to bloghop over and just rip something just cuz they dunno that someone.
to thk that i have the same chinese name as you.
倒霉。
你这个人，很恶心。

this song is niceeeeeeeeeeeee! :)



♡ , 有人说长大爱就会变心只剩下回忆。

Andy 哥是好人。
杉哥是坏人。
要二军超越六棒？
岂不是要毛弟和王子兄弟之间互相残杀？
岂不是要二军和六棒之间互相残杀？
坏死了。
好歹LOLLIPOP 也是离开 EMI 前一手培养的，如今你居然做的那么绝。
看来我并没有冤枉你嘛。
摆明是和六棒扛上了。
算你狠。
看到了Andy 哥的不甘愿和不舍。。
要不是为了让二军出片，他也不会那么委屈 :(
CZS sucks.

新布景。
新制服。
新底迪。
一时之间接受不来。
有一个还长的像人妖 -_-
Apple 和小傑的弟弟都在里面。
但是，虎牙 小乐 胖虎才真正给我熟悉的感觉。
你们三个一定要给我加油！:)
希望小乐这个班长，能够好好当。
但是，永远都比不过全宇宙最强的班长敖犬 ^_^


P/S; 突然之间有很坏的念头，想要新底迪表现超烂，收视率暴跌，那么旧底迪就能够都回来了 :P

阿緯在模范棒棒堂的最后一个大风车。
我，彻底的崩溃了。。。

我的邱氏兄弟！帅吧 ;)

结束了。
圆满的，落幕了。
情绪还是没办法稳定下来，没有办法接受，我的二十位男孩就要这样离开我。。
今天这一集，我哭的最惨。
因为我坚强的王子竟然崩溃了。
看着他哭，我也没有办法再忍住我的眼泪。。
现在眼睛又红又肿，等一下还有补习。
搞什么东西嘛我。
从上个星期五收到那晴天霹雳的消息之后，几乎每一集的模范棒棒堂都有哭，只是有时没哭的那么惨罢了。
但是该来的总是会来，也来了。
' 如今棒棒堂畢業了 很捨不得 但....天下無不散的筵席!!!' - 王子。
加油吧，大家 ：）
模范棒棒堂的底迪我爱你们！
LOLLIPOP 我爱你们！
王子我爱你，加油 ^_^
也是时候学会放下，收拾眼泪从新出发 ：）
虽然需要时间，但我会加油的 :)
模范棒棒堂，就在这里成功的。。退堂了。


如果没有选二军，那该会有多好。

it's the 5th time! :)
wenny & my message history burst for the 5th. unbelievable eh!
hahaha! the last time i blogged about our message history bursting for the 3rd time was..
i believe not long ago. & we promised to blog again on the 8th! which i thk would be in the near future! heh! ;)
you can imagine how much i talk to her everyday........
HAHAHA.
ohwells.
we feel the same things, we laugh and cry together.
many many times only she understood my feelings when others couldn't maybe cuz we were sad over the same thing!
thanks girl, for this long long journey down.
we gotta grow stronger eh?
没了它，我们还是要继续微笑，快乐。
因为我们也不可能一辈子以来它给我们快乐。
别人不能理解为什么一个节目的结束会带给我们那么多的悲伤，但只要我们彼此明白，就可以了！
不许管那些无聊人的看法，我挺你！^_^
the beautiful memories, laughters and tears will be kept at that left corner ;)
lastly,
love you girl!! :D

当我觉得很冷的时候，知道拥有一个温暖的地方，那种感觉很棒 :)
雯汐谢谢你 :)

my 邱氏兄弟 <3
labu labu~ ♥

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i'm so proud of my boy! he has grown up, really :D
totally so 感动 after watching this performance.
阿緯你很棒，加油 ^_^

P/S: people who never watch this prog might not understand, you all may think that his singing is horrible. but don't anyh judge, cuz you never saw his improvement. 一路走来他也很辛苦，很努力。只要我们看的到他的努力，就不需要外界的批评，因为你们根本就不懂他 :)


♥,就算放开，但能不能别没收我的爱~

wonder if i cried too much or didn't have enough sleep, resulting in me having double eyelids these days!!!
and it looks quite nice leh....
ROFL.
so i've been toying w the idea of having double eyelids permanently, but no, never considered plastic surgery.
let's be contented w my small small small eyes ^_^
bwahahahahaa.

最后一张合照。应该是很快乐的，但是怎么看了就想哭。
永远永远，是最美丽的回忆。

credits to sheryl for th photos :)

已经是空气。。
曾经曾经，有和 Wenxi 讨论过，如果模范棒棒堂停播了，我们应该会哭死吧。
哪知道，老天爷还真给我那么狠，就这样把他们从模仿棒棒堂拿走了。
该怎么办。
这次，我没办法坚强。我需要时间来复原。
虽然会是不久的将来。。
但我不能保证。


P/S; ask before saving th photos. thanks.

tmd, despite typing so much crap i still cannot face reality.
feels like a nightmare. i want to wake up and all will end! :(
敖犬TO范范姐：‘我觉得我们不见了，你会很辛苦’
堂主崩溃了。我也崩溃了。
why does the pain seem so hard to bear..............

敖犬。
王子。
小煜。
小傑。
威廉。
阿緯。
阿本。
毛弟。
野兽。
小马。
翰獎。
Terry.
鲔鱼。
牙膏。
李铨。
小禄。
多多。
虎牙。
Elmo.
小滨。
小乐。
你们是我这一辈子最美好的回忆。
无数的欢笑，泪水，还有棒棒堂这个避风港。
你们给我启发，推动力。
在我无助和难过的时候逗我笑 ：）
每一个烂梗，每一个冷笑话，真的，都是最棒的。
虽然每次都说你们是综艺咖，但至少你们综艺的很好笑 :D
毕业了。
毕业了之后，要更加油，走出自己的路哦！
你们永远是棒棒堂的骄傲。
不管怎么样，你们一定会是历史中最优秀的底迪们 ^_^
Locking, Popping, 雷鬼，还是你们最行 ;D
虽然一切都要结束了。。
但我还是会永远支持你们，也相信你们一定会有再度重逢的一天 :D
加油！
棒棒堂的精神一定会永远都与我同在 :)

‘总难免会失望要变的更坚强，
总难免会遗忘要坚持着信仰，
不管多难都不退让！~’
梦想巴士 :)

'人生无不散的筵席 乐曲也总有演奏完的时刻'
是时候也得该往下一个人生目标前进啦！
为了棒棒堂，加油！^_^
wenny & jy, jiayou :)

一天棒棒堂，终身棒棒堂。
堂主也得加油。没有敖犬和阿本的日子，需要时间去适应 ^_^



♡, 我们之间，不会有改变。

转眼之间，时间过的好快。怎么那么快，这一切都要结束了呢？
鲔鱼：我好想留级哦。
哈哈 :(

我。。
很不爽现在的自己。
很无奈，无助。
谁能来救我。。
God, I put my life into your hands.
Cuz only you knw what's best for me.

拼图。
在生命的每个过程中，就像拼图时一样，经过不断的找寻，探索，一片一片累积，持之以恒的拼凑出人生的梦想。
-萧敬腾的成年礼。

书本。。读完了。
这是第一次，读完一本书之后，感到如此空虚。
得到了很多的启发。
加油吧，为了美好的未来 ^_^
never give up! 失败不退缩哪里怕 :)
LOLLIPOP 精神永远与我同在 :D



♥, 这世界太扯，那些悲伤的，该停了。

纸袋。
把所有伤心和不满统统倒进去，再一起丢掉，把悲伤留在过去。
-萧敬腾。

突然有许多的感慨。
感触很多很多，但又不知如何去表达。。
我觉得萧敬腾很酷。
希望在我的生命里，也都会经历到那么棒的事情 :)
i'll be okay, soon ^_^

prelims were okay...... :)
2 papers down, 11 more to go -_- and 2 practicals.
best of luck friends! ^_^
命中 haven't end yet. 我的天啊，未必也太久了吧。 哈哈哈。
但是是好看的！:)
okay, back to mugging :D
anyw, i got all the things i want le! ;)CHECK! ♥ live CD rocks.
checked, :) 143 pages. i'm @ page 15 only -_- thanks to momma for sponsoring ^_^

oooooooh, and checked! :D

hahahaha. 完成了现阶段的任务啦。。
我好像最近很支持正版，钱都拿去买唱片了呢。
哈哈。 是好事。
下一阶段，FACES OF FAN FAN & 七彩棒棒堂EP~ :)
okay, bb :D



♥, 不该再用我的爱困住你。

YEAH. so i said unless there's something that is damn interesting otherwise i won't blog during the weekends as well right....
but well, there is.
a picture tells a thousand words,
i got this unknown sadness coming up me now :(

before i go on hiatus, good news to share!
1 paper down for da big Os :D
and bbjlb all got 1 :)
grats babes! :]
but well, having mixed feelings somehow.
cuz i saw how disappointed kurtz & chao were, never seen them like that before.
cheer up guys! tml'll be a better day. work harder to be all geared up for the next paper! :)
labu labu! seeeeeeeeeeeeee you, maybe 1 month ltr :D

hello :)
i wanna get this!!:wanted to get it since 1 week ago. but well, not fated. soon.
HE REALLY SUITS ROCKER STYLE. 真的。yeah, so i went to his showcase ytd, & Dragonfly was really pretty. except that it'll be prettier without so many structures. the whole place was filled w jam's posters. and is those kinda boards. very very very big. shall post pics up the next time :P
but i was late. thanks to my mom -_-
squeezed into dragonfly and omg. we were @ the back! i tip-toed till my legs almost broke. and he only sang 4 songs. sadded lah. not enough.... :(
i totally thought that this whole event sucked lo. until the meet&greet. thanks to 933 :)
oh, & if you remember when i went to Lunar i had this green band on me? I've the got the red one this time round! and people were staring @ me cuz they dont have. HAHAHAHA.
ohwells. he sang 收藏 王子的新衣 原谅我 & 奋不顾身。
我最喜欢的就是王子的新衣！因为他的撕吼功力真的是 OMG. i was wow-ing. jaws wide open :X
and the meet & greet session rocked. cuz to make up for me being unable to see him when i was @ the back. YAYE. he's damn handsome. face damn good. HAHA.
& my LOLLIPOP 闪耀小巨蛋DVD poster has been pawning all the other posters on my wall for so many months, until this one came along..:
tada! big poster :D just that lollipop's one is horizontal. this is vertical. hehe. with siggie! <3
they gave us this heart thing when we went in. everyone was practically waving it. blocking each other's view siol. ROFL. its on my wall now.
this! my prized possession :) i was feeling kinda guilty cuz i never buy his album yet. thn all the people arnd me all damn enthu one. alot of his albums :X & i was just telling Ning that i liked the gaiban's cover more. but somehow.. this album has another meaning to me. he passed it to me, shaked my hand and said thankyou. really sincerely. its the 1st time i've received the artiste's album from his/her hand, without me buying it 1st. 真的很特别。很难忘。
a great experience i shall say :D
oh, i wanna get his book too. but its damn ex. i wanted to get it since 3 months ago. now still stuck here. zz. i shall start clearing many many things i wanna do :)
oh, and jiayou to all my friends who're taking prelims! :D
i'm going on hiatus for the next month or so. might blog on weekends if there's something i really wanna blog about, but highly unlikely :X hahahaha.
bb! :)



♥,灰色是不想说，蓝色是忧郁。

Too tired to blog, so stay tuned to the next post :)
萧敬腾，很帅。
他的撕吼功力一流。
王子的新衣，超好听。
第一次听现场LIVE这种摇滚歌曲。
我真的，被他感染了，也爱上了这首歌。
很棒。

What is an idol?
any person or thing regarded with admiration, adoration, or devotion.
Quite true in a sense, huh? :)
Well, the topic I'm gonna blog on today is not about my idol lah kay. I knw you guys think that I'm like some idiot raving over Lollipop, but no, I'm not gonna actually blog about them today. Although their name will appear in this post.
Firstly, I'm gonna state it clearly that this post is not pin-pointed @ anyone & if you think that it is you, i never said anything. its your own thinking. So dont go all whiny and start tagging on my board. It just means that you're guilty of your own doing :)
Okay. The issue I'm extremely unhappy about is that people are using their idols now as a money tree. They sell items related to their idols & @ a high price, that is. And the most irritating thing that is pissing people off that those things are fakes. And damn it, they're selling it @ a sky high price then earn like nobody's business.
There's this Miss X who's Lollipop's fan. She's a cheater! Seriously a scammer. Not that I'm being biased here or what, but she's just low down. I mean, if you sell something & you wanna earn money, you wouldn't bring it to that extent. At least, be clever enough to not let people expose you. There's one blogshop selling 态度 tees @ $18, and she sells it @ $60 @ her blog. I can buy like 3 态度 tees & have $6 change still. But its obvious to see through her motive. She just wanna convince people that its real, thus that price. But I dont understand. She's not only cheating people $, but also cheating people of their feelings.
Its like, she never even spare a thought for those people. I mean, being cheated is really a very !@#$%^& feeling lo. Its like the whole thing will be haunting you & stuffs. Thn you'll be thinking why're so dumb to believe the person & bla bla. & so 不甘心。Like why you'll get cheated & stuffs. That girl is also selling 热血 tees, i doubt they're real too -_- ah whatever. One thing that I can't tolerate most is that, she's actually selling non-related stuffs too!
Prince once wore this pair of black framed glasses, & she's selling it as well. Supposedly has star prints on the side but the picture of Prince wearing it is only the front view, it doesn't show that its that pair of glasses at all. urgh. & she's selling Lollipop's 1st experience towel @ $30. Like wth, the whole EP including DVD towel & 200 pages pictorial is only $60. So.. disgusting.
Secondly, I'm actually still okay with such people. Because they're earning stranger's money & I bet they don't give a damn to who they're cheating cuz they don't knw those people. So fine. I'll be fair to them. But what about people who're selling things to their friends?
Do they treat their friends as money making machines as well? Are those 'friends' really considered as friends? I'm not being all grouchy & petty & whiny here. But fact is such. I actually personally do not mind my friends earning a few dollars from me, but maximum like $5 or smthg. But the truth is, I would not even wanna earn my friend's money, you see. I mean, if you treat that person as a real friend, you wouldn't right? I believe the friendship would overpower the feeling of greed @ that moment, no? Its really disappointing & disheartening to have a person whom you treated as a friend cheat you. That kinda feeling sucks. Its not the money that you're being cheated of is hurting. Its the person that you actually trusted that cheated you, and you're feeling sore over that point. When a suspicion is made, you wouldn't feel like investigating it at all, but your curiosity would get the better of you. So, you'll continue to find the truth and as always, the truth hurts. It really does. And it would turn your hurt to hate towards that person.
And that feeling sucks, seriously. I don't hate a person for a reason. And when I do, its really tiring. But it's just a natural reaction.
Thirdly, i hate scammers who last minute change the deal. Like E.G say more money is needed for shipping fees or handling fees. All amount should be confirmed upon the confirmation of the item. Its tentamount to cheating alright. What logic is there to actually increase the charges @ the last minute. It only gives away the fact that you're actually overcome by greed @ the last minute, and is asking for more money to make up for your greed. I despise such people. Seriously. And the reason why i never expose them is cuz i don't wanna make things too ugly. You knw who you're. I shall not elaborate.
Well, this whole post is not about idols but actually cheating of money, ha. But the three things I've mentioned as of above is definitely related to the transaction of selling/buying of things related to idols, and in this case Lollipop.
All the things that are making me angry aside, I'm actually feeling sad. After the lunar event on 12/6, I actually see people carrying big bags, containing tons of Lollipop's autographed CDs inside. I even heard sky high prices of $120 for one autographed CD. It's kinda sad.. Cuz people are actually using their idols for their own greed. And i pity those people who have to buy the CD from them. Its surely because of one way or another they couldn't enter Lunar for that event, so of course they have to get it through such means. So why, can't they empathize with a fellow fan, who actually likes them alot too? Just like how much we adore them, others do to. And put themselves in their shoes. What if the same situation happened to them? Would they be willing to pay a price so many times over to get the disc? Maybe yes, but they'll feel the heartache after that too. If it's me, I'll definitely sell it @ the normal price. Confirm + chop.
Ohwells, maybe really only money talks these days. Tired of this topic le. Making me kinda sad and angry. But well, at least I've said what I wanted to for so so long :) So I'm feeling kinda relieved now. Hehe.
Once again, I highlight:
I'm gonna state it clearly that this post is not pin-pointed @ anyone & if you think that it is you, i never said anything. its your own thinking. So dont go all whiny and start tagging on my board. It just means that you're guilty of your own doing :)
Whatever if you're gonna flame me. It just shows how guilty you're :] Loser.
Bye :)
credits to dictionary.com for the meaning of the word idol.

oh ya, before i forget..
happy birthday goh jia hao!
brother, older by a year le. be more mature hor! :D

hi! :)
first things first, happy 080808! :D ha!
nice day today :D :D
although i went to the hospital 1st thing in the morning, i was okay. and happy! :)
when i 1st went into the ward, the nurse asked if i specially chose today to go to the hospital cuz today is 080808, 好日子 LOL.
but well nope, it was a pure coincidence okay :)
but well, maybe going today helps! cuz i'm okay! no major gastric probs. teehee.
just that there might be some minor ones & indigestion. but NO bacteria! so i'm happy! :D
but well, still gotta take care.. cuz might be still young so not developed yet. but still, i'm okay @ the moment. so i'm happy =D hehehe.
thanks to 3/4 BBJLB & jingchao! for coming to the hospital to visit me hehe ;)
esp JY, who came the earliest & left the latest. thanks babe! :3 labu labu. heh.
oh, and thanks for her sunflower:totally made my day! i luv sunflowers. heheh :)
thanks to jingchao too, for his red dates tea, pocky and chocolates. and sorry! :/
thanks to ning & YJ for their soup, chocolate & tiramisu cake :D
love you guys! :D
& thanks to wenny who smsed me in the morning wishing me luck! hehe.
thanks to all who wished me to get well soon too =)
i'm okay now and will take care of myself! :D
hehehehe.
anyw, today's trip was a scary + fun one.
LOL.
cuz i was wheelchaired to the theatre, and it was totally funny. a long long long way. and i had this blanket covering my legs, as though i've got cancer or smthg(touch wood :P), thn i was put on the bed, and i saw the lights up there, as though i was acting in a drama -_- ROFL.
thn, i got this thing on my finger which is linked to the machine, that shows my blood pressure & heartbeat(the thing that goes ti-ti, ti-ti). i was practically playing w it, trying to see what makes it go to 0 and tiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii. ROFL. but sadly it didnt.
the next thing i saw, was this camera stick thing. olympus brand siol! LOL!!!! damn funneh. thn there's this big LCD tv as well. looks scary.........
thn the doc spread smthg to my mouth, and put this plastic thg in. thn he inserted this needle into my hand i blacked out. anesthesia i guess :)
the next thing i knew, i was alr pushed back to my ward & put on my bed. and i slept......
till the anesthesia wore off. hehe.
& i was told that i'm fine! yaye great! :D
but momma said that doc sucked something outta my tummy for a test. thus its bleeding a lil now -_- WTH. scare me lah. but she said it'll be okay...................... hopefully. teeheeee.
and yeah, my friends came and crazy things happened. LOL.
ning brought JY on an airplane ride to thailand. chao started to sleep. and many many stupid stuff. hahahahaha. what a fun day trip.
some people must be thkg, siao, go hospital also so happy.
CUZ I'M OKAY WHAT, :P
hehehe. ohwells. shall end here. bb! :)
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boo. i feel guilty now still :( make me feel better anyone? :/
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those bo liao spammers who spam wenny's blog, get a life manzx. so wu liao, nothing to do, can just go & eat yourself. no need to disrupt people's life -_- vutever man.

BYE :)



this song is nice! lol!

♥, 再舍不得，太爱你，才忍心放弃。



STAY TUNED TO THE NEXT POST. IT'LL BE A MEANINGFUL ONE :)

1st ever hospital stay! feeling a lil afraid now...
感觉上, 这几天都想一场梦. 好乱好乱啊. 让一切回到正常吧!!!!!

棒棒堂二军PK即将到一个尾声了。
突然之间，有一中伤感。。:(
怎么那么快就结束了，虽然已经快一年，但总感觉一切都真的过的好快。
我觉得是一件很残忍的事情。两组PK 了那么久，和自己的组员都已经有一定的感情，但把他们这样拆散，就算被选入二军也一定不会很舒服。毕竟，都一组那么久了，对于被淘汰的也会有一定的难过啊。。还有什么都是分两组来PK，但是现在会分开来选，这个idea实在有一些缺陷。有些人一定和有些比较不熟，默契又要重新培养，岂不是又绕了一圈？hais.. 心酸。还有，面对彼此也总会有些尴尬吧。本来是同一组，现在有些被淘汰了。实在是很残忍，并且有一点伤感情。虽然不会那么小气，但小小的尴尬我觉得难免会有啊。

最后一张和照。。。 ：/
不管怎么样，希望二军能够发光发亮！:D
不要抢走6棒的纷丝就okay了。嘿嘿。
但是应该不会啦 :)
我希望毛毛野兽阿本李铨—小禄可以进二军！虽然我觉得Terry是进定了。。
但是还是保持着乐观的心态！：）
二军加油加油加油！:D
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approx 5 days to release of O level chinese results! :/
我很紧张。其实是超级紧张。。
但是，我会尽力一平常心来面对！那些也快要拿到成绩的朋友们，加油！:D
dont wanna think too much le.
船到桥头自然直 :)
i just hope i won't be caught in a predicament. i cross my fingers! :)
labu labu. bb :)

i got them! but my head hurts like crazy now :(
zzz...
might be going on a hiatus soon.
see you :)

I feel like watching a concert, suddenly.
and i thought of her:A MEI STAR TOUR! i wanna go. but its kinda near O's. but i still wanna go. :(
i love her voice. i love her songs. i remember i starting hearing her songs since dunno how many years ago.
听海。原来你什么都不想要。哭不出来。剪爱。牵手。如果你也听说。一眼瞬间。many many more. she rocks! :)
oh, and i feel so screwed up too. my gastric's screwed. screw gastric :/
i wanna go music story! okay thats random.
ciao :)

i feel that we're getting further and further away. and i dont want it to be this way.

YAYE, ITS 3:13AM NOW -_-
LOL. done w HTQXZ. waited almost 2 hours for it -_- cuz apparently PPS is down & peepo who depend on online TV all didn't upload. :/
but smile wu is the best! luv her! :D hahaha.
this pic is damn cute! luv is in the air! hehehehe.
今天这集超好看的。因为是武打片所以真的有那种感觉！很让人紧张兴奋的感觉嘿嘿。
郭敬好吊！嘿嘿。
好了，我得去休息了，掰！:)
oh and miss xie, stop 发-ING 明星梦了。还是乖乖读书呗你！哈哈。

oh, and me & jingchao kinda like have diff views over this girlband. dunno why we always kinda like quarrel or have differences over such kinda random stuff. zzz. but i was merely stating my thoughts. really not 实力派 what. & i can't even hear what they're trying to rap. and their 华语程度is really CMI. no kidding. ah, whatever. maybe looks are everything, lo.

'if there's left nowhere to hide, escape.'
-yj's blog :)

sometimes i wish i can escape from this world that is tiring out. suddenly all dreams fall down and the world seems like its gonna crumble. sometimes i feel so tired i wish i can sleep for a 100 hours. sometimes i feel that it'll be better to go back to primary school days and never grow up. sometimes i'm tired of the way people view me. sometimes i'm just so damn tired of this world.

hello peepo! :)
1stly, i went to pierce my ear today! for fun . LOL.
but its damn red now. and it hurts >< and i feel that the upper part is like abit al hor :/
LOL.red ear! ><
oh, & 黑 girl! :)
this is their latest pic hehehe. i like 鬼's hair in this pic :D
and 筱睫's new hairstyle makes her look damn hot now! hehehe! :D
8/8, 叫姐姐！
oh, and tml is saturday already! HTQXZ~ :)

today;
went to IMM w jy. went to JE buy TYS, thn 宅男塾's EP, cuz very scared sold out! & i got the last one in the JE popular :D hehe! and we saw LOLLIPOP's first EP.
HMV really cheat peepo's money one! :X they sell for $37, popular sell for $21.95 only! OMG. so cheat peepo money right HMV. 很扯对不对！天啊。大概差十五块耶！oh my 天，幸好我之前没有买！现在知道了，很快就去购买了！^_^ 但是我还是得先买无法归类专辑！嘿嘿。
thn me & jy went to Daiso shop shop, bought the soft file. hehe. thn walk walked & went home. totally chiong-ed for tuition! totally dead tired now. haha. shall go rest le, bb! :)